Bought the latest issue in Bangkok of Need+ Issue 14 mag from Thailand last Saturday. I only bought it because it came with a VCD and it was the only cover that looked great from the other selection. Really great cover actually. I love the colours.

This afternoon, after some errands at Parra, I managed to squeeze in some quality time with the VCD. I wasn't sure what to expect. Realised it was behind-the-scene VCD which was ok. I wanted something a lot hotter.hahaha (like some boy to boy action.hehe)

Here's a sneak peak from youtube:



Luckily, the guy on the far right is really my type. I dunno why. He looks like Vincent kasi from work. The sole reason why I applied at the place I'm working at now. Super crush ko talaga si Vincent, but he's a little snobbish and he's a little on the thin side. But so is this model. (who is he? anyone?) Super thin sya but I have no idea where he's getting his uber sexyness. During the whole VCD I fast forwarded only to his sections and boy I wasn't disappointed. I got so turned on he made me cum all over my pants. Thanks Thailand! ;D

Here's some more pics of him from the mag:


Thanks Ate wonderwhoman for the pics.

New Supervisor Matt was on at GC tonight as our Supe. I never knew he was doing GC now.

He's so hawt! Like he's only my height but he's so buffed and he's butt. My gawd, the things I could do with those butt.

I've just found out he's Leb (and-oh-that-hairy-chest) and well and I'm working my way to totally flirt around him in a very subtle way.

I just want to lick him all over.

Went to see Cris Pablo's new flick Quicktrip last night at Robinson Galleria.

Grabe, I feel like meat. Everytime I go to the loo, I'm being checked at by dirty old men. I just bow my head down and make sure I don't make any eye contact.

Where are the young good looking blokes of Manila?

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Anyways, the movie had so much going for it...well... until the end.

I get it. A movie needs some twists and turns etc to make it a tad more exciting. But...

Let's review the film from the start.

Bank scene. Different sya. Camera shifts on chinito-yuppie-ish boyfriend.

What a fag. (and I mean that on childish way of cursing the character) How annoying was he. He spoke too much, tried too much and just had too much outrage about the world. Having his cel snatched didn't help his cause. I almost felt for him. But I guess this was a blessing in disguise because we move our attention to Topher "Chris" Barreto. Phwoar! What a find. I love simple guys like these. His character assumed that he was pogi, angelic, totally mabait, quite naive (which separates him away from all the evil of this world), masculine, very focused on what he wants for himself and his family and to me, totally sexy. I fell in love with him the moment I saw him. (and I'm not even into moreno types) For him, I watched the movie.

I saw in Chris the typical young Filipino of today. Attached to the cel, continously texting their lives away. I felt his need to be part of the world, whatever medium it may be. He seeked comfort in simplicity, because it was all he had, like the messages (or lack of) he recieved in his phone. And like me, we were born multi-taskers. Focusing one side to the family and their needs, and on our most closeted moments, finding ways to witness our secret 'gay' lives.

I felt bad for him. Seeking the attention of an asshole whom he's clearly mistaken for as 'love'.

I was familiar with his escape. Sex. When stressed or upset, I too look for sex as a form of escape. No drinking, no drugs...I go straight to the source. I admire his courage to enter the perverted movie house. I would've done the same. Except the fear of running into DOMs would've overtaken my desires. Obviously in this movie, he lived in a better fantasy world, where youth prolifirated such dirty places. Could there be a hint of reality in this? (I would like to think so.) And like Chris, would I be so quick to respond to anyone's interest in me even if they're butt ugly. No way! Give me Topher anytime and maybe I would think about it.

This is what I liked most about Chris. Behind his angelic nature lies horns driven by sexual desires. And add to that, his homosexual desires. Yum.

Enter super horny buffed Ando. Who is a living proof that all men think about is sex. Poor naive Topher was on the same state mind. Blame chinito asshole. (or thank him?) Half the movie is spent trying to find their magical place for sex. Where to go, where to go? Motels, parks (with desperate baklitas roaming it's grounds), dodgy friends pads. It was a nice glimpse to the grity world of motels in the Philippines. (which I'm nowhere close to knowing) Who would've thought that in these trying times, some motels dare to deny pink money by pushing away homosexual clientele? Hmmm.

And finally to the sex. Good for them. About time they find a secluded place for raunch.

Except...

I wanted just a tad more. A tad more pubic hair, a hint of cock... anything! Lately, I've been led to believe that there is a current trend going around the Filipino gay Indie scene that promotes the act of going full monty, kahit na hindi sila yung main characters. (Ang Lihim ni Antonio had it; Maraming Salamat Po Hanggang Dito Na Lang had it; Ang Lalake Sa Parola showed cock at some point)

And yet none here. Nada, zilch. I was hoping for it during the masturbation scene. Pero ala. But that's ok. At least we got to see a bit of Topher's and Ando's butt. Plus the gay sex scene here is a little closer to reality. They seemed keen. Troopers at heart. Tongues did wag and at some point the word 'torrid' came into my head. Believeable. Naive at some point, "Mahal na kita!" Hot.

Until the ugly twist. Like really? Was it neccessary?

It didn't work for me. Not that I am always in favour of happy endings. (I love horror flicks that kill all their characters. Well most. hahaha) Blame it on me being a hopeless romantic. A true seeker of love in all it's facets. Romeo in my own way. But mostly because I really thought Chris totally deserved to be loved and be happy. (he's that cute) Niloko mo kami. Akala namin eto na para kay Chris. He was in. His goaly kick was going to be the scream of the crowd. Pasok na sya!

But dude...

Sinira mo yung ending. Yak! I went home wanting my P40 back. You can have the P100 when everything was fine and dandy. But the rest. That's 15-20 mins of my life I can never get back.

All in all: it wasn't really that bad, well the first half. In fact it bordered in "OK!" Pero sayang. I'll give it to you though C. Pablo, the budgeting of funds at the beginning of the film was creative. I felt Chris' sense of poverty. We could all relate. The poor family cliche will probably be far removed from Filipino films. Heck, it's all over television, so why not film. When done properly, it does tug on peoples hearts. Chris was a good son all over. Admirable traits. My Kuya would dare not ask me for a kiss in exchange for money, but heck, to all his own. Loveable sexy and cute main character: check. Winner ka na sana dun. Yun nga lang, plain cliche na yung storyline. For all we know, he could've turned into a macho dancer. Then I would've just walked out of the moviehouse. But there was a point it became, could this movie be about a guy looking for love at all the wrong places? Then I was intrigued. So I soldiered on...

The rest of the film moved at a steady rate. The ex-boyfriend remained annoying. His friends made me promise that I shall never acquire such shallow people in my life. Ever! Ando's beefy body made me curious. It made me want to meet my own damaged Ando. But where? The movie made me question if real Ando's exist in the dark corners of dirty movie houses in the Philippines? Enough to tempt me to come back every year? And for the real Ando. Will he be making more gay films? Pero baka nga may topak ang ibang mga Ando. Yung mas malala pa ang aabutin mo in real life kuno.

So I gave the film a 6. For Topher.

I concluded that I could've been doing better things in life. Like maybe catching up on sleep or food tripping. Or hanging out with my family. Or maybe watching a better film at the other cinema?

I guess for me, when I go on secret rendevous like this, in a country I try to visit only on occassions, you want it to be well worth it. One wants to come out satisfied feeling the whole experience was well worth it and I'd like to tell all my friends about it. Like in Lihim or in Pagdadalaga ni Maximo. They had some depth in them that touched my heart. Truly profound gay films that I am proud to tell people. I felt something after the 2 hours of watching those.

With Quicktrip, that's what I felt like. Like a Quicktrip lang to Robinsons Galleria, just to kill time. Kasi may kulang yung film. Like depth, like a better ending, like better sex scenes, like less corny lines. If had I stayed home, logged unto the internet a searched for good porn, probably that would've been more satisfying.

In fairness...thank you for discovering Topher Barreto. I look forward to more of his projects in the future. He has lots of potential and may make it big on Indie films. Here's hoping that he would be willing to once again offer his services on satisfying the needs of the gay community in the film industry. Good luck to you bro!

To Chris Pablo: Andyan ka na. Alam mo na ang kailangan mong gawin. Hindi naman kailangang madalian. Pagisipan lang. Konti pa. Malapit ka na. Yung pang Academy ang dating. Depth lang Kuya, depth lang. Marunong ka nang humanap ng pogi, so no worries there. Malay mo, masali sa Film Fests all over the world yung susunod at susunod pa duon di ba. Bigyan ng panahon at isip. Di pa huli ang lahat! Yun lang po. Pero salamat na rin kahit papaano. :)

Watch the trailer for yerselves:

Have you read this yet on the Advocate? News about an Anglican Leader's final thoughts on homosexuality and how it fits religion? FANTASTIC! Maybe I should become an Anglican. *sign of the cross*

But basically the gist of it came to as Archbishop Rowan Williams saying that...

''I concluded that an active sexual relationship between two people of the same sex might therefore reflect the love of God in a way comparable to marriage, if and only if it had about it the same character of absolute covenanted faithfulness,''...

For sure. If all it takes is that covenanted faithfulness in the relationship, then bring it on. The God I know is a loving God no matter what. "COME AS YOU ARE!" and this is who I am.

Cheers to you Archbishop Rowan Williams. I bow to you.

The Advocate has also placed Mathew Mitcham on the cover. Not only is he a fellow Australian, he's also an OUT diver who will be competing in todays' Olympics. Awesome!!! Someone to root for. *Woohoo*As written, "Diving’s a sport where splashes are ordinarily discouraged. But Australian Matthew Mitcham’s decision to come out of the closet has attracted the whole world’s attention to this top-ranked jock’s shot at Olympic gold." Greatly put. This is news to me. There has been some, but not as much coverage on which Aussie athletes are hitting Beijing in the media. And if The Advocate is advocating that Matt has made a splash in coming out, then it must've been a divers splash, because this is the first I've heard of it. But heck, good on ya mate! I'll surely be cheering you on.

Ah ok. I've just found the Sydney Morning Herald article here. Go Matt!!! Aussie Aussie Aussie, Oi Oi Oi!!!!

I love chismis. Who doesn't. I think it makes the world go round a bit faster and just a tad more interesting. (even if it's considered a sin as I just found out on an in-depth study of the 10 Commandments over the WYD weekend. Ooohhhh...)

Anywho, there were 2 chismises today at work:

1. Was that one of the assigned managers at GC is rumoured to quit. Actually, that was yesterdays chismis. It became true all of a sudden when she walked in and blurted it out to me. I was sad for a second. I like and don't like her. Will I miss her? Probably not. Though she's a better Manager than the other one. But this chismis all of a sudden sizzled after I heard the second chismis.

2. My good friend Laurens kissed a boy. Hahahaha I had to laugh at this one. L is one of those young blokes at work who sorta in the background, but knows a lot of goss. He's not a kiss and tell, but if you get to know him, you'll soon find out that he knows a lot and just keeps it to himself. I got to know L over dinner once before a movie and well, he just spilled. Probably because he trusted that I wouldn't really tell anyone which is true. L doens't really talk about girls, but his not malamya either. He hasn't shown any inclination about playing for the team and frankly, I couldn't care less. He's just a nice young bloke to hang out with at work and such.

So when news surfaced this morning that he kissed a boy on his 21st Birthday last Saturday, I nearly fell off my chair. Laurens? Really? I don't know the details, but all I know is that it was with A (this big Pommy Bear-of-a-guy at work who just left and whom we all flirted with because he's just so damn sexy and charming and even I would do him) and it was around 3am. L was apparently very very drunk. (though he seems to remember everything? Ahermm.) I have no idea if it was a dare...but heck it happened. Wooohooo!!! Good on ya Laurens.

And here I am bopping and wanting to change the lyrics to Katy Perry's lyrics to her song "I kissed a girl" to "I kissed a boy" just for the sake of it. Pala naunahan na ako ni Ate L and "He kissed a boy...and he liked it!!! Taste of his musky chap stick..." Waahhh inggit ako sau L. Sana ako rin I kissed a boy on my 21st.

Song lyrics | I Kissed A Girl lyrics

I just happened upon this article on Ian Thorpe on the net version of SMH whilst trying to win some prizes.hahaha

The jitz of it all is that I think Australia's really over it. The article was over it. We as a nation have evolved and have grown up and being gay isn't at all that big of a deal anymore. Someone will know someone who is gay who knows another person who is gay. So what!

So my message to Ian, dude...everybody knows already. Don't worry about it anymore. Stop hiding and making news about girlfriends who live miles away on the other side of the planet. Frankly it's boring and it's so unoriginal.

It'd be more exciting if you just came out. Then we could "hurrah" you and and finally put your placard up on the wall for people to admire and young gay athletes to look up to.

Australia already knows. I think you're the last one to know buddy...

Just my 2 cents worth.

I've managed to log unto DL again. Wala lang. Surprisingly, I had people look into my page and had a few invites to be friends. Wahaw! Yun nga lang...mga panget. Panget silang lahat!!! Haaayyyyy... (although in fairness, baka maganda naman ang mga puso)

Kelan kaya dadating si Dennis Trillo...este si Prince Charming sa bahaus...este buhay ko? (nag driming na naman si Ate)

New hawtie boy Tom from Cambridge, England started today. (well yesterday really, pero di ako work yesterday) Super cute sya. Like para syang si angel Gabriel kasi ang cute ng locks ng hair nya tapos ang tangkad tangkad nya pa. Yun nga lang, dahil British sya, medyo tabingi ang mga ngipin nya, pero ok lang. Nag-meet kami last week nung nag-apply sya and I had to get our manager sa taas para ipaalam. Tapos nung pababa na ko, nakatitig lang sya sa akin na para akong debutante o princessa na pababa sa hagdan at kay ganda ganda ko at ng gown ko. *bwahahaha illusyonada si Ate* Pero sa totoo lang, nakatitig sya sa akin hanggang makababa ako. Kinabahan tuloy ako. Yun, decide na ko na like ko sya.hehe Tapos habang naghihintay sya, I swear, nung nagtanong sya kay Collin (isa pang big sister) kung kelan bababa si bossing, pagtingin ko sya pants nya, parang meron syang big hard-on at kay tambok ng pwet nya. Yum!!! Sana isa syang kafatid.hahaha

Anyways, medyo chika kami ngaun. Wala lang. Chika lang. Pero at least, alam ko nang di sya takot sa akin at kausapin, lalo na pag nagiisa ako.

Sana magka-holding hands kami...este...magkausap muli.