God, I nearly lost it. I nearly lost my Lenten promise to you that I keep clean and not touch myself until Easter.

But last night I had a strange dream with Ralph Fiennes. He's not even my type. I think this was spured by watching a preview of Bernard & Dorries which Ralph plays a gay man. (which I've never seen him in before)



Anyways, in the dream, it was night. I was in one of those olden rooms you'd find in 16th century movies and I'm asleep. Then Ralph walks in. I didn't realise he was blind and he was feeling his way through. I jump up and move towards him to aid him. Which resulted in a deep embrace. An embrace which got me really horny. He reciprocated my warm touch.

The next thing I knew, we were totally humping each other. I don't think he knew who I was. He just liked this warm feeling of being with someone and being appreciated. (well with his looks and age and all). We were both hard. I pull his pants off just to make sure. I felt his butt and his hard cock. And we just sat on this nice high old chair humping each other like teenagers with their first time and feeling each other's hardness. It was so erotic that I nearly had a wet dream.

I woke up humping the pillow was nearly about to come.

But I thought of you Lord. And I stopped. Not long to go I know. 14 days I can hack.

I dreamt of Kamil last night. Kamil is my European friend who happened upon our office one day out in the bush and a great friendship had blossomed from then on. He's gorgeous! He's back in Europe now, with a good job and is currently engaged to a gorgeous blonde.

In my dream, I was in a school, maybe as a student or as a teacher. He came by to visit and pick me up which was odd because I believed he was in Europe. That same old feelings came back. The same feelings we had when his girlfriend is not looking. He had missed me very much and brought me some long stemmed flowers. All sorts of colours. But it wasn't organised or anything. In fact, it looked like he cut it himself. And they were a bit everywhere. But they were very nice and romantic and it showed that he cared for me. I've only gotten flowers twice in my life...and they're both from girls. I was giddy all over and wished the dream moved on to a kiss. But it didn't. ~gosh~

DREAM: Dream ko kanina yung prend ko. Well kamukha sya nung prend kong si Jon. Ewan ko kung sinu yung kasama nyang babae. Yes, maganda sya so what!? ~taray~ Anywho, we were in this ski resort. Pero mountainous. Like tsuper. Tsaka tsuper dangerous kasi tsuper high sya and rocky. And steep. Nanonood lang ako, tapos out of a door, like all of a sudden, tangay nung babae yung prend ko sa sleigh. At ayun, pababa sila. Ang bilis ng pangyayari. Kahit yung prend ko nagulat, as in. Tsuper shock nga sya at nagsisigaw nung bigla na lang kaybilis bumaba sa snow yung sleigh sa very mountainous rocky mountains. ~tama ba yun?~ Anywho, nagcrush yung sleigh nila. ~patay~ Takbo tuloy ako to the rescue. Pagdating ko dun, ayun pareho silang unconcious. ~patay~ Yung prend ko, di ko pala prend. Kamukha nya lang. Medyo kalbo, redhead, puti. So I tried to wake him up. Eh ako minsan bastos ang esep-esep ko ~haha~ kaya nung ginising ko sya, hinihipuan ko sya sa dick nya. ~AYYYY kilig~ Hinupuan ko sya hanggang magising sya. Ayun, nakaramdam din at nagising. Malaki ba? Kayu haaaa!!! Ok lang!hahahaha Pero and sarap pala ng ganun. Yung pwede mo lang i-grab ng walang malay, yung walang kumukontra.hehehe O di ba! Di pa tapos dun yung dream kasi ginising ko rin yung gurl, pero boring na pagkatapos...