Tenks por dis Ate PhoebusHalliwell. This is a great mosaic of Fafa Dennis.

Grabe ang puti!!!

I just can't seem to get away with it can I. I've just started watching Season 3 of Brothers & Sisters and once again I am hooked. Then I heard Justin's name. Surely surely, there aren't that much Justin's in the world. So why???

I thought this vid shot of Justin Walker was hot. So mature, demure and alluring.

I pray the universe is hearing the yearning of my heart...

"Bakla ka! Dapat panindigan mo dahil gusto mo sya di ba?"
quote from Circle (Indie film) Ganun ba talaga?

My heart aches. I know it's sad. I can feel it's pain.

If I had a quote for today, it would say "My Life if meaningless without you." Ang drama noh...

Pero ganun talaga. Parang wala akong gana sa lahat. Walang ganang magtrabaho. Magsulat ng Christmas cards, magbalot ng regalo. Kumain. Gusto ko lang humiga at matulog o kaya mag-emote sa harap ng TV. Wala pang nagmamahal sa akin. Walang text. *beh*

Justin didn't come to work again. I don't know why I'm taking it personally. When I found out from Pascal that he gave away his shift, I took it as a blow. I felt like he was trying to avoid me. Trying every possible way not to see me. I'm crazy this way, when I know it has NOTHING to do with me. Pascal explained later (after I nagged him) that he had some school stuff on. I wanted to really believe that. Except, the boys told me that school finished last week. The fact that none of the boys from his school turned up today was hope that Justin told Pascal the right thing.

But I miss seeing him. Badly.

I had a missed call today from a private number. Deep down I wished it was him...

Yung anu pa, meron sa pelikula na Circle na pinapanood ko na may pangalang Justin. *bah*

Crazy thing happened yesterday at work.

As I stood and waited for patrons to come, at...

18:59pm started a long set of prank calls that lasted 'til 19:04pm. 11 pranks altogether.

Then a 5 min break. (like this person went to do something)

Last and 12th prank happened at 19:09pm.

Who could it be?

If I was a sleuth and put this all together, 11 pranks does spell J's name. But if it is J, then why the 12th prank 5 mins later???

11:22pm. My computer speaks to me. A divine message from the universe???

Justin. how do I live without you?

Ok!!! I'll admit it. I'm a stalker. Fcuk.

I don't mean to do it...it's just in me.

It's crossed my mind a couple of times. Just seeing where J lives. See if he lives humbly, just like the rest of us...or does the suburb he mentioned where he lives looks as perfumery as he made it sound to be.

His street name, which I looked up on the White Pages was quite funny. Let's just say that it sounds like a Chinese prostitutes name, so I figured, he must live humbly. The fact that I've looked up his name on the Pages once again suggests that I've got stalker blood in me. Fcuk.

So I looked it up in google maps. And voila. His suburd is right near the beach. What does that say? Beach...mah gawd. Only the rich folks gets to live near the beach. In Sydney anyways. Well we lived near the beach for years up north. We weren't exactly rich. So who's to say?

And then today came. My sister needed a lift to the airport which is kinda on the way where J lives. Time for revelations. I needed to breathe. I needed to see. I needed to know.

J lives near Bexley. A suburd almost an hour away from where I live. Towards the east, you could say near yet not so near the airport. The name itself conjures of images of nice beach houses. I fear for the worst.

After 25 minutes of driving around, night has fallen. It was a little difficult to find house numbers in the dark. Luckily, I've had plenty of practise as I was a Diether Ocampo in the past and delivered pizza for Pizza Hut in our area.

I entered the street. I had to take another deep breath. I wasn't really quite sure what I am expecting. Why the curiosity? Why the need to know everything about him?

The suburb was hilly and was full of tall old thick trees. I passed a bridgelike kinda road which held only one car at a time. Odd. I've never seen one of those before? The houses varied from one storey flat houses to huge massive ones. At the beginning of his street lay old bricked house, no different from the houses where I lived. A sigh of relief? Also here, they had small bins for Monday pick-ups, whilst we've swayed more to the bigger ones. A sign of wealth? I beg to argue.

I squinted my eyes to the number the first house presented. It was the number 3. Fcuk. As far as my investigation goes, he lives in an even number way above the 50s.

So I drive and drive. Small house, small house, small bricked house. *phew* I have nothing to fear after all...well until...

Until I crossed an intersection. And vaboommmmm...huge looking Italian houses popped out of nowhere. WTFcuk???

I calm my heart. Surely, he must live at the other end of the humblier side of town. In a house where I wouldn't feel threatened by his upbringing. Where his princessness won't get in the way of our future relationship. Where we could be us and no materialism would distract us from our views. The way he described his father, well, maybe he's not that well off. Well...until...

Until I crossed to another intersection where the shops laid. There was a nice nifty shop that was starting to display their Christmas wares. I love nifty shops like that. So unique and so full of new ideas per season. It must be a wealthy kind of area to have shops like that. All we have in our area our Indian stores as novelties.

I pass a house and it bore the number 94. Shite. I've passed his house 20 houses ago.

I do a U-wy and drive back to the wealthy area of the street where the houses looked like Italian mansions. My heart palpitates once more.

I get even more nervous as I pass a house full of lights. Shite. People are walking out. That could be his house and they've just had a small party with the relos. I breathe a sigh of relief as I saw the people that dwelled in that house. They looked like Italians. He's not Italian. (though he could pass as one). I search for the number from the well lit mansion. It was 76.

And there and then, my heart dropped as I realised what street number he possessed. Yes folks...it was the house right next door.

And it's a fcuking mansion.

My future husband lives in a mansion! With big windows, a big backyard that's nicely renovated and nicely secured with strong modern fences. The modern door was twice the size of our house door. They had a big living room upstairs with open windows right where the people could see. It was modern, magnificent and my heart fell...

I can't believe the bastard is loaded.

Just as he looks. Which explains the trip to Greece. The exclusive school. Almost everything.

I don't quite know how to handle this...

I summoned him through a sketch as advised by The Secret. A drawing of my Justin.

You know when you look forward to something so much that you set your heart into it and you prepare like you've never prepared before.

Today was like that.

What a let down. (again)

Justin wasn't at work. Not his fault. He just wasn't rostered in.

It's just... he told me that the usual days he works was Mon, Wed, Thurs and Saturdays. But he's been meaning to take Saturdays off and change his availability. So that leaves me with 3 days to see him.

Except on the days they don't roster him in.

My future is looking bleak by the minute. :(

La la la La la la la la La la la La la la la la

I just cant get you out of my head Boy your loving is all I think about
I just cant get you out of my head Boy its more than I dare to think about

La la la La la la la la

I just cant get you out of my head Boy your loving is all I think about
I just cant get you out of my head Boy its more than I dare to think about

Every night Every day Just to be there in your arms

Wont you stay Wont you lay

Stay forever and ever and ever and ever

La la la La la la la la La la la La la la la la

I just cant get you out of my head Boy your loving is all I think about
I just cant get you out of my head Boy its more than I dare to think about

Theres a dark secret in me

Dont leave me locked in your heart Set me free

Feel the need in meSet me freeStay forever and ever and ever and ever

La la la La la la la la La la la La la la la la

I just cant get you out of my head I just cant get you out of my head
I just cant get you out of my head...

Justin...I don't know what to do. Ikaw lang ang laman ng isip ko. :'(

HE HAS A FUCKING GIRLFRIEND!!! FFFFUUUUUCCCCKKKK!!!

Or so he says...

Mga ate...help!!!

I can't get Justin out of mah head. (avah! parang Kylie Minogue song yun ah) "Boy your love is all I think about..."hahaha

Kasi naman, si Kuya Fais from DL nag-advice advice pa. Sabi nya, live life to the fullest daw. Kahit na alam kong masasaktan ako, sige, hala bira daw. Minsan nga lang naman akong makakatikim ng isang blue eyed adonis at lakasan ko raw ang loob ko.

So ayun ako kagabi, nagpakagah-gah na.

At work, I tried to try and speak to him as much as I could in his 4 1/2 shift. Konting shake hand, konting flirt. Konting help. (muntik na syang agawin sa kin nung bading na manager namin. Uh-uh...akin yan!!! Don't touch or I'll wring your neck!!!)

Si Justin naman, flirt din back. At kung makatingin sa akin...nakakatunaw. As my cousin would say...Gosh!!!hahaha

Nung break ko, finally, nasa point 1 nanaman sya. Favourite spot daw nya yun. (siguro kasi palagi nya kong nakikita.hahaha) Eh tamang tama naman, break ko. Shet. Nakita nya kong dala yung Burger King ko with my drink and sundae...at hinihingi nya sa akin. Shet shet shet...kung kaya ko lang, isinubo ko na sa kanya lahat yun. Waaaahhhh!!!)

Balik break ako and all I wanted to do was give him free soft drinks. Kasi daw "Piss small" yung binigay sa kanyang tubig. Sabi ko sa kanya, intayin nya ko.

So binigyan ko sya ng Lemon & Lime Bitters. Ang cute cute nyang ininom.

Tingin uli sa kin ang gwapo kasi sinuot ko yung 3D glasses na sinuot ko sa pelikulang Journey to the Centre of the Earth with Brendan Fraiser. Cute daw at napa-smile sya.hahaha Wafu talaga...woof woof.

Kaasar naman ang mga friends ko. Kasi ang aaga natapos, so hang-out sila sa bar. Eh di nila alam, I'm trying to make most of my time with Justin and flirt. Ayun, dinistract ako kaya di ko masyado nabigyan ng pansin si J.

Nung umalis na sila, tsaka ako bumira. Waaaaahhhh, patapos na daw sya.

Buti na lang, naimbita ko sya for one drink. Umuo naman. So he had another Lemon & Lime Bitters and we chatted. Ang gaga, pareho yung t-shirt nya nung isang araw. Di pa nilalabahan.haha Ayun, medyo I got to know him more. Like his new playstation daw na bigay sa kanya ng dad nya at tsaka yung konti nyang sweldo. Na chick-boy pala sya (bummer) and he likes to drink na. (kahit na 16 pa lang sya) Kasi nalasing daw sya sa flight nya when he was in Europe. Na he has Irish and British background, and a bit of Spanish. And he hated his 5 min stop over in Asia. (coz he felt sick and drunk) Yun lang...

And I said that he could sell his body. Kasi gwapo sya and he could make heaps of money. blah blah blah

Pero he had to go na. Shet. Fuck.

So inintay pala ako ng mga friends ko to hang out and have dinner. Mga gunggong na yun. Pero and laman lang ng isip ko at i-text sya (dahil ninakaw ko yung number nya sa work) and I had to come up with a great excuse to text him...payo ni Kuya Fais.

So during dinner, I took a deep breath and took courage in texting him. Mali ba??? Sabi ko, I'm glad he like my Lemon & Lime Bitters. It was great daw kasi. Niloko ko sya and said na I spat on it.hahaha

Tapos yun. Reply naman si gwapo at di naman nagalit na nasa akin yung number nya.

Nag-jelly na yung mga friends ko and they were wondering who I was texting all night. Akala nila yung kaaway ko.hahaha Kung alam lang nila.

Shet naman at naglow bat ako. Naka tatlong text lang tuloy kami.

So kagabi, sa bus, bago matulog, pag gising, sya lang ang nasa isip ko.

Medyo disappointed ako dahil mga 1 liners lang sya magtext back. And he's a chick-boy (super gwapo kasi). And in fairness, di ko sya masyadong kilala. Baka may girlfriend na pala ang gungong...paano yun.

Kanina...ti-next ko uli sya. Isa lang ang sagot. Shet. 3 times ko syang ti-next. Isa lang ang sagot.

Mali kaya???

Sya lang ang laman ng isip ko...Mahal ko na ata? Help.

Happy Valentines Papa!!!

Kung alam ko lang kung paano kontakin ka...gagawin ko, para masabi ko na sa 'yo ang undying love ko. I love you Dennis.

Napanaginipan ko si FaFa Dennis kagabi. Alalang alala ko kasi eto ang first time kong mapanaginipan si FaFa Dennis, so talagang maalala ko diba.

Nagmeet daw kami sa party ng Tito ko. Suot suot nya 'tong orange na shirt na 'to katulad nung last show nya with Bubblegang last Friday. Alalang alala ko yung panaginip kasi nung nakita ko sya, ang tangkad tangkad nya at super payat. Nagulat ako sa tangkad nya kasi sabi nga ng lahat ay di sya ganun katangkad. So I've always imagined na magkataas lang kami o kaya medyo mas matangkad lang sya ng konti. Sa panaginip ko, naiisip ko kaagad, ganyan pala katangkad si Aljur, yung isa ko pang FaFa, kasi pag magkatabi sila sa Zaido, almost magkasingtangkad lang sila divah! Anyway, nagkakilala kami and I shook his hands and I was very excited. Sabi ko sa kanya, "Dennis idol kita!" at kilig na kilig ako.

Ewan ko kung medyo overacting ako o naiirita sya kasi nung nagmeet kami parang di sya natuwa. Na sad tuloy ako.

Anyways, nung middle of the party na, katabi nya yung Tito ko na kumakanta ng karaoke. Tingin lang ako ng tingin pero di nya ako pinapansin. Asar.

Sa panaginip ko andun din si Marky Cielo, pero tawag ko sa kanya ay yung alias nya sa Zaido na Alexis. Pero di kami masyadong nag-usap.

Sayang ang pagkakataon namin ni FaFa Dennis. Pero di ko na ata makakalimutan 'tong panaginip na 'to. I love you Dennis Trillo. Sana...date tau sa Valentines.vuahahahahaha

In fairness...lalong lalo gumagwapo si FaFa Dennis divah lately. Ewan. I think it's his new haircut. And he's maturing more and more handsomely. Everytime I see him lately in his shows, he really takes my breathe away. At napapabulong ako, "Ang gwapo!"

Napanaginipan ko si Dennis Trillo kanina sa nap ko. Ewan ko kung bakit sya and nasa dream ko. He was inside my Mum's room daw with the rest of my friends. Pero ito ang pinagkaiba. He was stark naked and really really short. Like kid short. He saw me look at him when I entered the room and nagulat na lang ako. Naalala ko tuloy yung blog nung isang guy just before this New Years, kasi sabi nya they saw Dennis daw at Burgos and he was so short daw that his parents didn't even notice he was there. Like "'La lang.." So what if he's short. He's a great actor naman.So ganun si Dennis sa dream ko. Very short. Nagtaka tuloy ako. And I was quite disappointed. Kasi flat yung butt nya and well, he had an Asian cock. ~alam neu na yun~ Yun lang. Pero tsuper puti pa rin and whapo!!! In the dream, I saw him again the second time and he was lying sidewards naman. Pero parang silip lang ako kasi ganun yung sliding door ng Mama ko sa kwarto nya. Kitang kita ko parin ang kaputian ni Dennis tsaka ang ganda ng abs nya sa dream ko. ~drools~

Sabi sa dreammoods.com:

To see a naked person in your dream and you are disgusted by it, signifies
some anxiety about discovering the naked truth about that person or situation.
It may also foretell of an illicit love affairs, loss of prestige and scandalous
activities. On the other hand, if you do not have any problem with another's
nudity, then it implies that you see through people and accept them for who and
what they are.

So yun siguro nga. I see through people and readily accept them for who they are. Kahit anu fah sabihin nila sa yo Dennis, MAHAL PA RIN KITA!!! Good luck sa career mo. Sabi sa hula, babagsak ka na raw, katulad ng pagbagsak mo from the Galatic Force Spaceship hanggang nagcrash ka sa Earth.hahaha Pero wag kang magalala, sasaluhin kita.hahaha As if na hahayaan mong magsink ang ship mo. Although in fairness, masyado kang nalilink sa mga horror films. Hope you get back in the takilya force and do some Indie films. Re-try your acting skills and do something different. Yun lang!

Yes, I'm a huge fan of Zaido simply because of Dennis Trillo and Aljur Abrenica. The amount of fantasies I've poured out between these two boys... ~aaaaahhhhhh~

So when I see images within the show that could simply imply something else, I grab it just for the sake of us all. ~kilala neu na kau mga kafatidz~

I entitle these pics..."Ang Pagkalibog ni Gallian"

I leave the rest to your imagination mga ziz!!!

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Kakanood ko lang 'to. Kawawang kawawa naman si FaFa Dennis. ~bruha ka talaga Carlene!!! (kahit na malumay ang boses mo at alam ko namang pinoprotektahan mo lang si Calix) Stop LYING na!!!~ Pero pagpinakingan nyo ang boses ni FaFa Dennis, ang dami nyan "Ummm.." at mukhang talagang pinagiisipan nya ang mga sagot nya. Damang dama ko rin sa boses nya ang pagkakaba nya. Na-sad tuloy ako. At ramdam mo na parang gusto na nyang magmakaawa na sana iba na ang tumbas ng lahat. Gusto nyang maniwala sa kanya ang mga tao dahil palagi nyang binibigkas na nasa kanya lahat ng text messages ni Carlene as proof sa pagkabruhilda nito at ayaw syang palapitin kay Calix. Na hanggang gate lang sya at parang nakabilango para lang makita nya ang kanyang natatanging anak. Sad talaga. Anu vah yan!?! At ayaw pang tanggapin ang mga gifts nya. Carlene tama na!!!

Sana FaFa Dennis, mas maging masagana at maganda ang New Year mo at mas magkasama pa kayo ni Calix.

Kasi naman...tayo na ang maglive-in FaFa Dennis Trillo at ako na lang ang anakan mo.bwahahaha ~joke~

Part 2. Nagland ang spaceship ni Gallian sa Earth at na-encounter na nya uli ang first and lost love nyang si Ariana.

Nahanap ko na rin ang susunod na tambok ni Gallian. Dennis I love you!!!

Question: Boxers or briefs?

Ayan. Ang sama sama ko na. Eto na ko at nagi-ispread ng mga bagay na mapaguusapan at pwedeng pwedeng kalkalin ni Lolit Solis o ng The Buzz. Pero as they say naman, it's the World Wide Web, and well, "Sharing is caring!" O da bah!

I'm only publishing what you've already seen on TV, pero baka lang di nyo napansin. O eto na mga sis.

First of all, if youre reading this FaFa Dennis, I want you to know I love you very much! So much that I'm willing to share you with your million undying fans like me.

Of course this was a scene from the early episodes of Zaido, when Gallian went to Sendar to rescue Amy. What a beautiful scene. Siguro naman, alam ni Gallian na skimpy talaga ang new outfit nya at alam nyang papansinin at papansinin ng mga gustong pumansin ang bukol nya. Sana di ka na lang nagbriefs nung araw na yun FaFa at parang ang init-init sa Sendar! ~mas masaya.hahaha~

Dapat lang syang pansinin at mukhang may pagmamalaki naman si FaFa. I love you talaga Dennis. Kung ganito ka ng ganito, baka di na ko makapaggigil sa yo. Gallian forever!!! Dennis Forever!!!

Ang cute cute naman ni FaFa Dennis dito at nakikipag-PEACE sign pa sya with his tagahanga sa Japan during his last stint there. Ayyy inggit ako. Sana andun di ako at nakikipag-PEACE sign ala Japanese.

Pics from my karibal Kuya Tony.

Anu ba yan! Mukhang in trouble nanaman si FaFa Dennis 'Zaido'. According to MyKiru nagreact nanaman si Carlene. Ngayon naman against FaFa Dennis. Anu ba yan. Pinamumuka nyan sinungaling si Fafa.

Anu ba Carlene. Tama na. Iwan mo na sya. Paano mananahimik ang buhay mo at ni FaFa at my adopted son Calex kung ganyan ka ng ganyan. Magpapasko pa naman. Hinay na sa mga banat. Kokey!