Finally...a breakthrough.

Prayers do get answered.

I passed by the boxoffice today and Adrian had just signed in. It was a small passage way and the only thing to do really was say 'Hi'. He looked me straight in the eye and we both said hello. I asked him how he was and he said he was ok. He had a little smirk on his face.

Finally...a breakthrough.

Although I did catch him checking me out the other day when I was in box and he was at point.

I wish we could just be friends again...

I fear the worst. I think the thing with Adrian is fluctuating. *shit*

After his text last Friday, he's been acting really funny and has been really carefula around me. *shit*

I thought we were ok yesterday because he greeted me like always and he seemed stoked to see me. And then I grabbed some ice a little bit later and then he did this look with his eyes. Like he was facing somewhere else in a distance but I can see him doing this thing with the corner of his eyes. Like he was either cautious or was waiting if I was going to do something. Like maybe I was going to stuff up???

Maybe I'm thinking about this too much.

Then at the end of his shift...he just left and didn't say goodbye or anything. This is so Justin all over again. Fuck!

He came back with Jake around 9:30ish because they were going to see a movie. It just so happens that I was at the ticket office when they were there because I was signing off. He saw me but he kept putting his head down. He spoke to me a little but I think he was just being polite. On the way to their movie, he put his hood on...like so that I won't see him. Fuck!!! Maybe I'm just way thinking too much about this.

Then I texted him...and alas, no reply. FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! I am so pissed.

I don't know if I am really pissed because he's fucked me up, or because the friendship between us has just ended or because I've let this happen all over again just like Justin. And so soon....

Anna was right. "Men are SHIT!"

I'm in a 2 day fasting. I won't text Adrian for two days everytime something tense happens between us. Today's the 2nd day. This is so hard...