Grabe...In Love na ata ako??? Shet.

But how? Ewan. Parang gusto ko lang syang makita palagi. Pero di naman nya pinapatibok ang puso ko. Pero parang palagi kong gustong hanapin ang kanyang amoy. Gusto ko syang amuyin. Yakz noh, may pagka-stalker.hehe

Pero teka lang mga ate. Wag kayong ma excite. Medyo di sya totoo. Actually totoo sya pero sa isang gay site ko lang sya nakita. I asked to be friends with him and ang reply nya:

"You seem to be one very friendly and sensible gay here so why not? Welcome to my page!"

Ayokong ma-excite. I know this doesn't mean anything. Pero sana...

Ang pogi nya. Hindi artista type...ang sabi nya pa nga, "I'm no Aga!", pero sa kin ang pogi nya. Graveh mga sis. Siguro, kaya kong tingnan ang nakangiti nyang mukha buong araw. (dun sa picture na ha!) Kung pwede ko nga lang i-publish yung pic nya here, I would, but that might be a violation of privacy. Nasisiraan na ata ako ng ulo.

Kahapon sinulatan ko sya. Sabi ko, sana pwede kaming maging friends. Tapos may pa-ekla-boo pa kong game kami ng 20 questions. Ayan tuloy...mukha na nanaman akong stalker.

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Kanina, finantasize ko sya. Magka-office mates daw kami. Pero sya sa top floor nagtatrabaho, at ako sa first floor. Nagmeet lang kami sa isang small office party. Kami lang ang Pinoy sa party kaya nakita nya kaagad ako and smiled. Nagblush tuloy ako. Then as I was to touch one of the biscuits, he warmed me not to eat those daw. Masama daw ang lasa. He spoke to me in Tagalog to test nga kung fellow Filipino ako. Dun na nagsimula.

At first, walang feelings. He would usually just drop by to say hello at kamustahin ako dahil nga ako ang new kid on the block. Nung una nyang bisita, nabanggit nya lang na sometimes bored sya sa work, so he chats. Eh dahil daw minsan wala syang ka-chat at madalas ngang ma-bored, inimbita nya akong mag-join sa chat nya. Oo naman ako. Sabay imbita na rin minsang mag-coffee sa canteen and maybe cake if time permits. Dito na humahaba ang istorya namin.

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Hanggang dito pa lang ako sa fantasy ko. I know it will develop soon.

Para syang open book. Di nya lang alam. Ang dami nyang hints na iniiwan about himself. Mainly sa website. Akala nya kasi siguro walang pumapansin sa kanya. Di nya lang alam, nahanap ko na sya.

Kahapon nahanap ko yung page nya sa isang gay dating page. He posted some photos. Mainly sexy kasi nga he's looking for someone to date. (me me...ako na lang!!!) There were 3 photos of him with his shirt off. Tapos meron din palang X-Rated page. Kinabahan tuloy ako. Dun...duon ko nakilala ang alaga nya. "Nice to meet you po"

He seems matured, very. For someone who's 26, I think he's grown up a lot. I'm a bit older than him, yet I don't think I'm ever as mature as him. Kasi I hang around kids, I look like them, so people easily mistake me for a 24 year old. Kung alam lang nila.

Ngayon ngayon lang, nabasa ko yung isang excerpt nya sa site. Again, he's revealed himself. He's got a blog pala.

Ever so slowly, I'm finding out a bit more and more of him. It's quite exciting. Exciting kasi secretive. Like I said, it's like reading a book. And finding out na medyo may pagkabastos pala yung binabasa mo.hihihi

He's a teacher, I believe. In Saudi. According to his posts, he's really bored and wants to leave soon. Probably because it's a hole in the middle east. He loves poetry and good books. He's very smart. (and horny.hahaha) He also likes to talk about politics. He seems to thrive on thinking about things.

Already I feel a little inferior. He seems to be looking for someone who can share his passion. I don't know a thing about poetry and politics bores me. I love looking at his face though. I do. Maybe I'm in love with what he looks like and not who he is. And yet, I'm finding him very alluring as I get to know him a little bit better.

He's very gay though. (why have 3 gay websites if you're not?) I think he's accepted that very well. Whereas I have so much more to travel in that area. So many people to tell blah blah blah. He knows what he wants. He doesn't describe his type, but I know that he wants to fall in love. He's a top. I am both. What shall we do. He likes to kiss and cuddle. That's re-assuring. I know that he'd be a great lover though. Someone who's very passionate.

I shall await for more of his posts tomorrow and the day after. As these are the only windows I see through his soul. The pages he writes tells me of his heart...and I shall wait.