Ang saya saya ko. Graveh!!! Like SOBRA!!! Like there is a GOD!!! Why?

Kasi nakasama ko sya kanina. Sino??? Yung crush ko sa work. Graveh ang wafu wafu nya. As in SOBRA. Dark hair, blue eyes, my height...and oh mah gawd, a butt to die for. As in.

We'll call him Leoh.

Pag dinadaanan nya ko sa work, pagkatalikod na talikod nya, yung pwet nya kaagad ang tinitingnan ko. As in. Kasi bakat na bakat sa pantalon nya. As in...sarap.

Anyways, kasi ganito yun. Matagal na ng batian ang mga mata namin ni Leoh sa work. Sya actually yung una kong nasilayan. Nung palakad pa lang ako sa first day ko, nakita ko syang nakatingin sa akin dun sa McDo across ng trabaho namin. Akala ko kung sino lang syang nakatayo duon, ayun pala, staff din sya sa amin. Nung papasok na kami sa meeting, nakasabay ko sya. Tapos merong konting introductions ng mga baguhan, dun ko nadinig ang pangalan nya. Leoh. Aaaahhhhhhhh....

Pero hanngang dun na lang. Wala ng ibang pansinan. I mean, nakikita ko sya, pero yun lang. Kasi di kami magkasama sa building. Palagi syang nilalagay sa ibang section na di naman ako nilalagay.

Except for today. Aaayyyyy!!!

It started out as a normal day. Bago ako sa Gold Class section namin. 10:30 ang start ko and it ended up na kami lang ng supervisor ko ang on. Kaya kaundagaga kami kasi tini-train nya ko, tapos ang dami na naming kailangang gawin.

Dumaan sa bintana si Leoh. Napahinga lang ako ng mabigat. *sigh* Ang wafu wafu nya kasi. Pero like hanggang dream on na lang ako.

Well until 12:30 came and he walked in. Shet shet shet!!! Sa section pala namin sya. Ngeks. As in panic attack ako mga sis. So ayun, deadma ako. Lucky kami kasi saviour of the day namin sya. Sya na yung gagawa nung mga kailangang gawin. So paminsan minsan, nagkakadaanan uli kami sa work. Magtitinginan, konting smile and nod, yung lang.

Graveh...mamamatay ata ako sa excitement. Pero I have to contain it. Baka may makahalata sa work.

Of course ala akong alang sa kanya besides his name. Actually, I lie. Ginoogle Search kaagad sya pagdating ko sa bahause kasi nga alam ko na ang pangalan nya. As in "Stalker Mode". bwahahaha Katakot ako.

Ayun, nahanap ko ang myspace account nya. Ok lang. Tsuper wafu nga sya at medyo payat pa sya dyan sa mga pics nya. Ngayon mas medyo maskulado na sya at matingkad ang dating. Type na type ko sya. Graveh. Kamukha nya yung crush ko noon na porn star na si Eric Hanson. Ayan (hint hint) medyo magkapangalan pa sila. Tapos I found a pic pa of Eating Out 2: Sloppy Seconds star Marco Drapper na kamukha na rin. As in crush ko sya to the bones. Aayyyyyyy!!!

Ok, so medyo di kami magkatagpo in terms of music. At dahil British sya, it's acceptable na soccer fan sya. Pwede kong i-break yung ice and laugh that he likes 'Neighbours'...oh mah gawd, that's so daggy. Kaya yun.

Pero mukhang mga dag ang prends nya. Paano yan? Pag naging kami na, I have to deal with them.hahahaha As ip.

Anu pa ba? 5'9 daw sya. Lie. He's my height and I'm only 5'6. Medyo corny din ang mga paborito nyang movies. As in di nakakatawa. Patay tayo dyan. Mukhang walang wala kami in common besides work and our height.

Doomed na ba from the start???

Anyways, basta ang saya saya ko ngaun sa work kasi nga nakasama ko sya.

Medyo tense pa kami sa isa't isa dahil ang feeling ko, crush nya din ako.bwahahaha As in. So pagnagkakasama kami, parehong deadma para di kami magkabukuhan dahvah. So I broke the ice when he came. Sabi ko wala akong alam sa bar kasi nga di ako umiinon. Ang response nya naman, isang beses pa rin din ang experience nya sa bar kaya di nya din masyado alam. Kuno. He had the perfect opportunity to lure me in. First he was explaining where the beers go and what the glasses mean. Then he showed me the wines, which he didn't know much about. Tapos yun na. Yun na ang longest exchange of words namin.

As in downhill na yung buong araw.

Kasi nga deadma ako. Playing so hard to get. So so TORPE!!! *wahwahwaaaaaaahhhhhhh*

Buong araw dinedma ko sya. Tinging tingin lang. Merong time na kunwari pinagaaralan ko kung paano gawin yung deserts. (well I was) Palapit na sana sya sa akin kaya lang siguro akala nya busy ako. Hindi, lapit ka lang. Kausapin mo ko. Halika dito!!!

So the rest of the time, I tried to get to know the other staff na lang. At least sila mas nakilala ko pa. Yung isa pa ngang babaeng Thai natanong na ko kung may gf daw ako at love life na ang napagusapan namin. Yung iba naman, naamoy na ang mabango kong pabango. Nakapagtawanana na kaming lahat. Nakausap ko pa yung isang kaibigan ko ng French na naagaw ko sa kanya.

Anuvahyan mga sis. Anung gagawin ko??? Parang takot na takot syang kausapin ako. Di pa nga kami nakapagproperly introduce each other. Mamamatay na ata ako.

Dalawang beses ko lang syang napatawa. Nung isa nung nagliligpit sya. Joke ko, "Don't drop anything!" Natawa naman ang gungong. Tapos nung bumalik sya sa break nya, joke ko, "Where's your apron mate?" Nagulat sya, at sabi nya palagi na lang nyang nakakalimutan. Tapos, merong isang order na kailangan ng frozen coke. Eh wala sa amin, kaya kinailangang pumunta ako sa Candy Bar. Andun din sya pero di ko sya pinansin. Pagbalik ko, kumuha na din pala sya. Napangiti sya tuloy.

Pero yun lang. Wala na. Pagkatapos nga ng shift ko, di man lang nya akong pinansin. Di man lang nagba-bye. Pero nung nagpa-pack-up na yung isang babae, pinansin nya pa at sabi nya, "Are you finished?" Where's my "Are you finished?" convo??? *waaaahhhhh*

Pero napansin ko, tahimik sya. As in di mapalabiro. Ewan ko kung dahil madami lang babae sa shift namin. Kasi nung dumating na yung boys sa afternoon shift, medyo dumaldal na sya. He's a rigorous worker. Hindi na sya kailangang utusan. Gagawin na nya kaagad. Yun lang.

Pero ang wafu wafu nya nga. Lalo na pagnag-smile sya. Tsuper Wafu!!! Ano gagawin ko. Eh ang dali daling main-love sa kanya. *waaaaaahhhhh*

Pagkatapos ko ng work, parang ang gaang gaang ko. Ang saya saya ko at sya lang ang laman ng isip ko. Baka nga magalit sa kin si Lord dahil sa Vigil, di ako makapag-concentrate sa prayers. Sya lang at ang mga fantasies ang nasa isip ko. *waaaaahhhhhh*

Tingnan na lang natin ang mga susunod na kabanata...

Shet! What an almost awful day. Surrounded by dumb-ass male chavanistic pigs.

Kuya had submitted me to 3 hours of almost hell. I had to get the car fixed so I went to the mechanics. The deal was, I'm to drop off the car, and in turn they would drop me off to the local library where I can freely use the wireless internet so I can download porn as I waited for 3 hours for them to fix the car.

Super super crush ko sya. He looks like one of my old friends whom I had a secret crush on. FaFang FaFa kasi dating nya dibz? And when he did Ang Pagdadalaga ni Maximo Oliveros, I nearly fell off my chair. JR Valentin...I sssooooo heart you. If only all Pinoy cops looked like you. {fatay tau dyan mga sis}

Ayan na!!! Dararating na!!! Ang Manay Po 2: Overload. (April 16th is the Premier) Yeheeeeeeyyyyy!!!! Though it saddens me that I can't watch this as I'm not in the Philippines.

I loved the first one. Only because gay movies starring hot and hunky popular mainstream actors in the Philippines are so hard to find (and this one just about covered it. Thank God!). If it's not starred by Allan Paule, then it's either Rustom Padilla, Roderick Paulate, Sweet or Eric Quizon. Again?hehehe Don't get me wrong, I trully respect these actors for (saturating and) tackling such (apparent) challenging roles. But come on, for them to star in all the movies? (ok, don't taray taray me, it's just my opinion) Of course the Indie films are booming and are saturated with clad and new hunky actors such as Coco Martin and Ken Escuerdo and I can't wait for someone to upload Sikil, Selda and Condo on Veoh and the lot...but until then, I must master twiddling my thumbs.

So Polo Ravales is back on his second gay role. Yehey!!! I so heart this sexy guy. Maybe it's his bald head. I dunno. Or his cruisy smile. But there's definitely something about him. At least here he's a little more effeminate, though I prefer him a lot butchy. (I wished he acted it out more though on his Bebot session on Eat Bulaga last Nov) But just seeing his gay side tickles my fancy. Plus his torrid kiss on the first one with Luis Alandy, which was cut, was Oh-Mah-Gawd hotness and I wish they'd do it again!!! The actor will tackle anything which is such a great attitude. Such a trooper. He'll definitely go really far.

John Prats is gay gay all the way!hehe He is already very believable playing gay. He did it too for Mano Po. And if he's in with the fedarashon, then the more the merrier. Apir tayo sister! Respect to you bro. Keep up the great work!!!

Then there's Jiro Manio. I've almost seen this young actor grow up. And if he's ok with these type of roles, then man, let me subscribe to your movies.

Of course, Cherry Pie Picache will hold a special part in my heart. I absolutely salute the woman. I've seen her in almost every gay Filipino movie out there! A total hag and for that, I love her. *bow* God bless her!!! She's reigns queen in the gay movie industry. Word.

Giselle Sanchez will always have me in stitches. Ruffa Mae Quinto will make me laugh eventually. So I'll look forward to the gags they'll have me rolling into this great sequel.

And though it saddens me that Luis Alandi won't be rejoining us in this cast, I know hairy Sid Lucero will somehow raise the temperature too. Along with Christian Vasquez, Paolo Rivero and Mike Tan.

So bring it on. Let it rain men...hallelujah!

Watch the preview here:



Read more about it here.

And please oh please, someone upload this on pinoychannel.

Grabe...In Love na ata ako??? Shet.

But how? Ewan. Parang gusto ko lang syang makita palagi. Pero di naman nya pinapatibok ang puso ko. Pero parang palagi kong gustong hanapin ang kanyang amoy. Gusto ko syang amuyin. Yakz noh, may pagka-stalker.hehe

Pero teka lang mga ate. Wag kayong ma excite. Medyo di sya totoo. Actually totoo sya pero sa isang gay site ko lang sya nakita. I asked to be friends with him and ang reply nya:

"You seem to be one very friendly and sensible gay here so why not? Welcome to my page!"

Ayokong ma-excite. I know this doesn't mean anything. Pero sana...

Ang pogi nya. Hindi artista type...ang sabi nya pa nga, "I'm no Aga!", pero sa kin ang pogi nya. Graveh mga sis. Siguro, kaya kong tingnan ang nakangiti nyang mukha buong araw. (dun sa picture na ha!) Kung pwede ko nga lang i-publish yung pic nya here, I would, but that might be a violation of privacy. Nasisiraan na ata ako ng ulo.

Kahapon sinulatan ko sya. Sabi ko, sana pwede kaming maging friends. Tapos may pa-ekla-boo pa kong game kami ng 20 questions. Ayan tuloy...mukha na nanaman akong stalker.

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Kanina, finantasize ko sya. Magka-office mates daw kami. Pero sya sa top floor nagtatrabaho, at ako sa first floor. Nagmeet lang kami sa isang small office party. Kami lang ang Pinoy sa party kaya nakita nya kaagad ako and smiled. Nagblush tuloy ako. Then as I was to touch one of the biscuits, he warmed me not to eat those daw. Masama daw ang lasa. He spoke to me in Tagalog to test nga kung fellow Filipino ako. Dun na nagsimula.

At first, walang feelings. He would usually just drop by to say hello at kamustahin ako dahil nga ako ang new kid on the block. Nung una nyang bisita, nabanggit nya lang na sometimes bored sya sa work, so he chats. Eh dahil daw minsan wala syang ka-chat at madalas ngang ma-bored, inimbita nya akong mag-join sa chat nya. Oo naman ako. Sabay imbita na rin minsang mag-coffee sa canteen and maybe cake if time permits. Dito na humahaba ang istorya namin.

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Hanggang dito pa lang ako sa fantasy ko. I know it will develop soon.

Para syang open book. Di nya lang alam. Ang dami nyang hints na iniiwan about himself. Mainly sa website. Akala nya kasi siguro walang pumapansin sa kanya. Di nya lang alam, nahanap ko na sya.

Kahapon nahanap ko yung page nya sa isang gay dating page. He posted some photos. Mainly sexy kasi nga he's looking for someone to date. (me me...ako na lang!!!) There were 3 photos of him with his shirt off. Tapos meron din palang X-Rated page. Kinabahan tuloy ako. Dun...duon ko nakilala ang alaga nya. "Nice to meet you po"

He seems matured, very. For someone who's 26, I think he's grown up a lot. I'm a bit older than him, yet I don't think I'm ever as mature as him. Kasi I hang around kids, I look like them, so people easily mistake me for a 24 year old. Kung alam lang nila.

Ngayon ngayon lang, nabasa ko yung isang excerpt nya sa site. Again, he's revealed himself. He's got a blog pala.

Ever so slowly, I'm finding out a bit more and more of him. It's quite exciting. Exciting kasi secretive. Like I said, it's like reading a book. And finding out na medyo may pagkabastos pala yung binabasa mo.hihihi

He's a teacher, I believe. In Saudi. According to his posts, he's really bored and wants to leave soon. Probably because it's a hole in the middle east. He loves poetry and good books. He's very smart. (and horny.hahaha) He also likes to talk about politics. He seems to thrive on thinking about things.

Already I feel a little inferior. He seems to be looking for someone who can share his passion. I don't know a thing about poetry and politics bores me. I love looking at his face though. I do. Maybe I'm in love with what he looks like and not who he is. And yet, I'm finding him very alluring as I get to know him a little bit better.

He's very gay though. (why have 3 gay websites if you're not?) I think he's accepted that very well. Whereas I have so much more to travel in that area. So many people to tell blah blah blah. He knows what he wants. He doesn't describe his type, but I know that he wants to fall in love. He's a top. I am both. What shall we do. He likes to kiss and cuddle. That's re-assuring. I know that he'd be a great lover though. Someone who's very passionate.

I shall await for more of his posts tomorrow and the day after. As these are the only windows I see through his soul. The pages he writes tells me of his heart...and I shall wait.

Happy Valentines Papa!!!

Kung alam ko lang kung paano kontakin ka...gagawin ko, para masabi ko na sa 'yo ang undying love ko. I love you Dennis.

Napanaginipan ko si FaFa Dennis kagabi. Alalang alala ko kasi eto ang first time kong mapanaginipan si FaFa Dennis, so talagang maalala ko diba.

Nagmeet daw kami sa party ng Tito ko. Suot suot nya 'tong orange na shirt na 'to katulad nung last show nya with Bubblegang last Friday. Alalang alala ko yung panaginip kasi nung nakita ko sya, ang tangkad tangkad nya at super payat. Nagulat ako sa tangkad nya kasi sabi nga ng lahat ay di sya ganun katangkad. So I've always imagined na magkataas lang kami o kaya medyo mas matangkad lang sya ng konti. Sa panaginip ko, naiisip ko kaagad, ganyan pala katangkad si Aljur, yung isa ko pang FaFa, kasi pag magkatabi sila sa Zaido, almost magkasingtangkad lang sila divah! Anyway, nagkakilala kami and I shook his hands and I was very excited. Sabi ko sa kanya, "Dennis idol kita!" at kilig na kilig ako.

Ewan ko kung medyo overacting ako o naiirita sya kasi nung nagmeet kami parang di sya natuwa. Na sad tuloy ako.

Anyways, nung middle of the party na, katabi nya yung Tito ko na kumakanta ng karaoke. Tingin lang ako ng tingin pero di nya ako pinapansin. Asar.

Sa panaginip ko andun din si Marky Cielo, pero tawag ko sa kanya ay yung alias nya sa Zaido na Alexis. Pero di kami masyadong nag-usap.

Sayang ang pagkakataon namin ni FaFa Dennis. Pero di ko na ata makakalimutan 'tong panaginip na 'to. I love you Dennis Trillo. Sana...date tau sa Valentines.vuahahahahaha

In fairness...lalong lalo gumagwapo si FaFa Dennis divah lately. Ewan. I think it's his new haircut. And he's maturing more and more handsomely. Everytime I see him lately in his shows, he really takes my breathe away. At napapabulong ako, "Ang gwapo!"