Of course I allowed myself a little break to watch as much porn as I wanted, except on Holy Days. In fact I was even allowing myself 'wet dreams' as I had no control of my what ever I dreamt.
And yet it still happened? Yes, I ejaculated. I cummed. Without touching myself.
Ok yes, I watching a lot of porn that night, but that's just it. I wasn't moving or rubbing anything. Just sitting, engaged in whatever I was watching. What it felt like was just a really really full cock, my cock, super full of cum, and then it all just flowed out. Aaahhhh.
I must admit, it was a relief. I read somewhere that medically it's very healthy to have sex (though this wasn't really my case) and ejaculate. I needed this somehow. Oh FUCK yeah...I've been sober for 10 months (not including my wet dream a couple of months back).
But was this a sin? Did I break the pact?
