NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS

1. Date!!!
2. Find Love (wherever it exists)
3. Read more books
4. Be adventurous and open to new experiences
5. Be spontaneous

Date. Date because I haven't really gone out in a date (a proper love one) since I was in High School. This is really sad on my part. Ok, I digress. I have been on several dates this past year. I just didn't know it. I didn't realise she was falling for me. *eew* But I want to date. I want to date a nice guy over dinner, touch, go for a walk, catch a late movie and then coffee and then we'll see where it goes from there...

Find love. In anything. Between hugs from friends to giving a little kid a lollipop which lights up their face.

Read more books. I read too much magazines. (not that that's a bad thing!) Sydney has a great Botanical Park which needs to be explored. Summer is here. Perfect!!!

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Did you see that? Did you see that look when Luke walked in and the way Noah looked up and so happy! How romantic!!! *gush* "My boyfriend gave it to me!" How sweet...

Hope Brian doesn't ruin anything. Ooooohhhhhh!!! OMG Luke you didn't??? You didn't just plantthose lips on his??? OMG Noah you didn't!? OMG that's so hawt!!!hahaha Do that again!

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Awwww...flowers? Noah sent flowers to Luke? Noah, send me flowers.hehehe

Oh-oh...Cassey's in trouble. *tsk tsk*

Jade's getting annoying...

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Gawd Luke's an IDIOT!!! How can he hurt my Noah like that!?!?! Noah...come home to baby...

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Casey was married to a Mommy? Phwoar!!! Who's this Jade chic anyways? Luke's cousin? Luke's best friend? Hmmm...

Lemme guess...black dude is Jade's father?

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Tenks por dis Ate PhoebusHalliwell. This is a great mosaic of Fafa Dennis.

Grabe ang puti!!!

Akihiro...muito lindo!!!

I just can't seem to get away with it can I. I've just started watching Season 3 of Brothers & Sisters and once again I am hooked. Then I heard Justin's name. Surely surely, there aren't that much Justin's in the world. So why???

I thought this vid shot of Justin Walker was hot. So mature, demure and alluring.

I pray the universe is hearing the yearning of my heart...

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Who's she? Yawn....

"Bakla ka! Dapat panindigan mo dahil gusto mo sya di ba?"
quote from Circle (Indie film) Ganun ba talaga?

My heart aches. I know it's sad. I can feel it's pain.

If I had a quote for today, it would say "My Life if meaningless without you." Ang drama noh...

Pero ganun talaga. Parang wala akong gana sa lahat. Walang ganang magtrabaho. Magsulat ng Christmas cards, magbalot ng regalo. Kumain. Gusto ko lang humiga at matulog o kaya mag-emote sa harap ng TV. Wala pang nagmamahal sa akin. Walang text. *beh*

Justin didn't come to work again. I don't know why I'm taking it personally. When I found out from Pascal that he gave away his shift, I took it as a blow. I felt like he was trying to avoid me. Trying every possible way not to see me. I'm crazy this way, when I know it has NOTHING to do with me. Pascal explained later (after I nagged him) that he had some school stuff on. I wanted to really believe that. Except, the boys told me that school finished last week. The fact that none of the boys from his school turned up today was hope that Justin told Pascal the right thing.

But I miss seeing him. Badly.

I had a missed call today from a private number. Deep down I wished it was him...

Yung anu pa, meron sa pelikula na Circle na pinapanood ko na may pangalang Justin. *bah*

HQ Van and Jake Interview on Tv Guide's Infanity



Aww...they look to be having so much fun. I love Jake's smile. I hope this is a hint that Luke & Noah are getting back together!?

I WUV U JAKE.

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Amazing!!! This confrontation was so civil and mature.

How does Luke do it? How does he attract all these good looking men and make them fall for him and then make them come out. If that's his X-Men powers...I want it!!!

Lovebirds



I'm a sucker for any foreigner who's willing to embrace our culture and attempt to learn the language.

The acting looks sus but I shall still probably sit there for an hour and a half just to give it a go. Kudos to the directors who's managed to nag a foreigner to star in one of our gay indie films...

Ad Watch of the Day:

Two hawt guys in one car. A/X I'll tap into that!!!

I am in such low moods. I feel like the stars have unaligned and destiny has parted our side.

Justin didn't turn up for work again. I'm sure he has his reasons...

But this week has been pretty empty without him. I wake up and pronounce his name. I go to sleep pronouncing his name. I even wrote a whole page muttering his name and thinking about his image just to summon him back into my life.

Last weeks rosters determined that, if lucky, we'd have at least 15mins spending time with each other. That 15mins was shattered today when he didn't turn up to work.

And I had it all planned in my head too.

I'd finish at 5:15 just as he would be coming in for work. I would run and iron my yellow shirt, splash on my fave perfume, look hawt and then sit by the bar where I work and pretend to read my Twilight book as I waited for my gurl friend to turn up with her cousins. He would be standing at Point looking all confused and jealous. I would smirk secretly...

None of this happened tonight. Shattered!

I picked up next weeks roster which turns out worst than this weeks. He's only working on Sunday (my official day-off) and Monday night where I work by day. Fuck! Cupid has abandoned his post.

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On the upside...

For the very first time, Mitch smiled at me today. I mean he did this on his own accord. It was my Santa hat that did it. But him to initialise a smile was way way worth it. It was sweet I gushed all over. Plus we had a little conversation which is a break in the ice.

Robert came over the bar after his shift and spilt his beans. I like it when he does this and tells me things. I feel a little bit more special. Except I know he speaks to everyone and he's such an open book everybody knows everything about him. Anyways, he was in such a bad mood for being cut plus it didn't help that he was fined by the cops yesterday that he probably felt like everything was going wrong. He wanted to go for a drink with me even if he knew I didn't drink. This is the first I suppose. He's never really invited me to anything. He just wanted company. (hence I shouldn't really place much thought to this) But it was nice. If I didn't have plans already I would've obliged. *sigh* It didn't help that I had a crush on this guy a few months ago.

Martin was also there. He mentioned that it's his birthday on Saturday and he invited me. I have no idea what kind of bar he's into but it's at the Cross. *ooooohhhh* He also once again mentioned when we were going on our mandate?haha Pity he doesn't take anything seriously. Coz if he did, I'd be so up for pashing him. (sans the braces) But since I'm in such low moods and self esteem, this needs a serious act of desperation and go for the fifth next best thing.

That's 3 straight guys who tried to distract me today...what's with me and straight guys??? Loser!

So Plan E, take Robert out to a bar on his next offer and pash him, go out with Martin on Saturday for his birthday, watch him get drunk and pash him, then make a move finally on Mitch and pash him. hahahaha

Even I'm laughing at myself now.

I love you Mitch!

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GO LUKE!!! That's much better. Civil and strong. No obsessing...

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What's with the background music? It's distracting. Yawn story...

I pray to God Luke and Noah get back together. Coz' mate, if Luke doesn't watch out, I'm gonna snatch Noah off him. *smirk*

Brian's gone wild. *eew* Can't believe Luke took him home. Idiot! (anything to continue the crusade.)

Finally caught in the act.

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Knew it. Luke's not gonna let this one go.

Man...can't wait til Luke and Noah get back together again and kiss like no one's looking...

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My head is spinning. Not about the lola *yawn* storyline but about Luke's new crusade.

First and foremost I love Noah's new cut. He is so so cute. All I could think about was Justin. Justin has a new do too.

Brian's starting to look hawt. *eeewww* Did I just say that?haha I know what Luke is thinking. He's such a hothead. And I know that when he gets pushed back, he fights harder. Another outing is about to happen on ATWT.

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This Brian and Luke thing is getting bigger. Yes, Luke's getting sick. (what a weakling...didn't even really drink that much did he???)

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Luke's gonna get sick yadda yadda yadda.

Jake auditions as Leo Part 2


I have no idea what Jake is auditioning for...but yeah babyyyy go for it!!!

Jake auditions as Leo Part 1


I luurrrvvvvveeee Jake.

This is a perfect example of how clever he can be as an actor. Sure I love him playing gay! I mean, he is a major character in all my fantasies. But hey, if he wants to explore his talents to deepen his acting abilities...go for Gold mate!!!

He's so funny here. So much different from Noah. I lurrrvvveee you Jake!

Jake Auditons as Aaron Part 2


What is this? And what movie is this for?

Jake says words like slut, whore, cum, motherfucker yadda yadda yadda...

Sooooo hawt!!!

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Why does everyone think Brian can make magic with Luke??? Awww Noah's back. *yay!*

Luke & Brian war is ON!!!