Ano ba yan? Starmometer had a pole pala about who's going to be he next GMA FaFa Drama Prince di man lang nagsasabi. Pero ok na rin sa akin kasi nanalo naman ang isa ko pang FaFa na si Aljur Abrenica. Ewan ko kung bakit patay na patay ako sa batang 'to. Pag tinignan ko namang mabuti, may pagkahalatang promdi sya, malaki pa ang ilong.hehe I wuv you Aljur!!! Promis!

Kaya lang kasi super uber sarap ang dating. Barakong barako...lalaking lalaki.

Ala na 'kong paki sa pole na yan, nung nakita ko yung bago nyang pic...grabe, I knew I had to share it with you all. Kasi naman, parang ang laki laki na ng katawan nya ngayon da ba? Eh pag pinapanood ko naman sya sa Sa Piling Mo, di naman sya ganyan kalaki. Minsan nga medyo payat pa sya.

Pero mga ate, sa pic na 'to, ang sarap sarap nya noh?

Nung nakita ko, sabi ko kaagad sa sarili ko, "FFFFFFUuuuuucccckkkkk MMMmmmeeeeeee!!!"

Papayag kaya sya?hihihi

I wuv you Aljur FaFa!

Super crushing on this Japanese guy whom I saw at the annual Cherry Blossom Festival up west. He was wearing yukata just like me and he's so YUMMY!!! (look at the first pic where you could almost glimpse a taste of his chest. Ffffuuuucccckkk!)

I can just imagine him without underwear under them Japanese robes and his young Japanese cock throbbing. And we would be doing it under the white cherry blossom tree and he would be squirming and he would be whispering "Motto...motto!" (more more!)

I'm such a naughty boy for thinking this... *blush*

Could this be him na? Eto na ba? Nahanap ko na ba sya? Ikaw ba sya...ummm...

My Prince Charming?

SanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSanaSana

Sana....(clicking my red heeled shoe three times)

Sana ikaw na nga...

I'm such a bad boy for taking a secret pic of Justin like this. But I just have to share him with the world. Kasi he's soooooo sooooo GORGEOUS and his eyes, my gawd, I could drown in his eyes.

So what if he's only 16. So what. (this is the age they are horniest the most, I think)

I spoke to him briefly today. Just small chatter. Maybe it's just me ha, pero, he really gets nervous around me. But he stares. Those looks that he gives me. Like he wants to tell me something else. Something. Like maybe...just maybe, he might feel the same way???

On a more positive note, meet my other boyfriend, Jake Silberman. Shhh...he doesn't know it yet.

He's the other half of "Nuke" and he was introduced to me whilst the blogger world bombed and raved about them last year as they heated up the screens on As The World Turns.

I'm not much of a fan of Van (though their on screen connection is hawt and that deep inside, I am probably a Van).

I HEART Jake because he's tall and gorgeous, kinda nerdy yest sporty, has a swimmer's thinnish body and has creamy clear white skin and pink nipples and I just wanna eat him all up. Whoops...got carried away there.

But he is my dreamboat. I'd definately fall for a confused straight guy who would dump his girlfriend to be with me. Awwww...

This was taken yesterday at the 22nd Annual Broadway Flea Market in New York City where some cute actors like Dylan Bruce, Derek Keeling and Jake Silberman (to name a few) to greet fans and sign some autographs. Isn't he gawgeous!!!

On some other note...I've taken the plunge and introduced myself to the new kid Justin lurking around on Floor who's the recreation of Adonis I swear! In fact, he looks kinda like Jake, only shorter, a lot more curly hair and the sky bluest eyes you'll ever see in a teenager. He's so cute!!!I could just lick him up. I'm going to play my cards around him... (man I sound like a pae-do-phi-le)

Here's my favourite Nuke scene (pay attention to that magical heated moment):

F*ck.

I shouldn't've lingered. I should've just gone straight home after my shift. I shouldn't have entertained the thought of watching a movie with some of the gang.

Yan tuloy napala mo.

Mel was super estatic after talking to Vince and finding out some mini goss about about him. I wanted to hear it. She was beaming.

Vince is a pretty secretive guy. (that's probably why I thought we might be on the same page) No one really knows much about him unless he shares it with the world. He's pretty good at hiding things too or avoiding people from digging into his personal life. He'd make a great actor in the Philippines if he's able to do this.

And the rains kept pouring and the rains kept crashing down. Thunder.

Mel was estatic because she's found out that he has a girlfriend. And she's white.

HEHASAFREAKINGWHITEGIRLFRIENDTHEBASTARD!!!

That's just f*cked man. :(

After a very long time, I got to work with my secret crush Vincent again at GU. Yaaaaahhhhh!!! *kiligs*

The last time I worked with Vince was in the kitchen when chef was there like eons. I had a good time. Chef really liked Asians and even though it was really busy, time just flew by. Chef just joked around with us and even cooked some food for everyone to eat. Vince and I were his assistants. Vince and I had a good rapport. You can tell because we become like little boys just pushing each other around and laughing. I don't see him much doing that with anyone else.

Unfortunately, Vince can be a total snob. I don't know if it's brought on by his hidden feelings for me too and he can up the "Playing-hard-to-get" game. He's really really good at it. I worked with him again some other time and he just totally snobbed me off. In fact I thought he felt a little threatened as I was in charge that day and he didn't appreciate me telling him when to go to lunch. *sook*

But tonight was different night. I was once again all over the moon. I was like a girl, spraying perfume three times and making sure I looked impeccable. And though we didn't get to talk as much as I wanted to within the 6 hours we got to work with each other, the moments were there. And he was all smiles everytime we spoke. I seem to also get his lame jokes which he appreciates. I got to touch and feel him a lot which was my way of saying I really liked him. Just don't know if he's on the same page. I'd like to think so.

But having him metres away from me was enough. Way enough.

Vincent T marry me...

Last day daw ngayon ni Llyod sa work and I'm not on shift today. *shite*

He was kinda my crush when he first started even though he was your typical Aussie Aussie bloke and he had his own assumptions about sissies. He was ok when he started but when he moved up the ladder and became a manager, he kinda changed. People started disliking him and he totally forgot what it was like to be at the bottom.

Plus he lost his tongue and well, we realised we had nothing in common so everytime we'd try to converse, well, wala. He was so dumb.

But I had my own theories about him. I really reckon he's closeted and he a has a big thing about me. I can tell by the way he looks at me. It's different from the way the others guys look at me at work. And when he's around me, it feels like he doesn't know what to say. So TORPE!!!

And now he's leaving and last night was the last time I would've spoken to him. He said, "Hey ____!" and walked off. I said, "Hey mate!"

That's it. Sayang. Another boy-crush chapter closed.

So nababasa mo to Lloyd Kely eto lang ang 1 minute message ko sa yo:

Lloyd, I never hated or disliked you. I liked you more than you could ever imagine. (like seriously) It may have only looked that way because you started to look and sound really dumb once you got that position. You could've done so much more. Like improve the problems at CB. I know I never got to tell you (partially because you hid it from us) but I was very proud of you when you became Duty Manager. Ok, so you didn't do it like the way the others would've done it, but you did it and you shook yer thing! ;D If it was another time, I wish it turned out better. I hope you're better at this with the girls.haha Though your time with Ray really made me wonder.

Well mate, good luck back in Qld. I don't know what your plans are, but go for gold mate. If you're ever tech smart and find this hidden(ish) message, and have matured more and know how to handle things, get back to me. This time I might really entertain you. And mate, let's not talk about sports...

PS. When you told me you were partially Aboriginal and "No one really know's that about me" I, for a second, finally thought we had something going. Sharing secrets... we could've gone so much further.

Bought the latest issue in Bangkok of Need+ Issue 14 mag from Thailand last Saturday. I only bought it because it came with a VCD and it was the only cover that looked great from the other selection. Really great cover actually. I love the colours.

This afternoon, after some errands at Parra, I managed to squeeze in some quality time with the VCD. I wasn't sure what to expect. Realised it was behind-the-scene VCD which was ok. I wanted something a lot hotter.hahaha (like some boy to boy action.hehe)

Here's a sneak peak from youtube:



Luckily, the guy on the far right is really my type. I dunno why. He looks like Vincent kasi from work. The sole reason why I applied at the place I'm working at now. Super crush ko talaga si Vincent, but he's a little snobbish and he's a little on the thin side. But so is this model. (who is he? anyone?) Super thin sya but I have no idea where he's getting his uber sexyness. During the whole VCD I fast forwarded only to his sections and boy I wasn't disappointed. I got so turned on he made me cum all over my pants. Thanks Thailand! ;D

Here's some more pics of him from the mag:


Thanks Ate wonderwhoman for the pics.

New Supervisor Matt was on at GC tonight as our Supe. I never knew he was doing GC now.

He's so hawt! Like he's only my height but he's so buffed and he's butt. My gawd, the things I could do with those butt.

I've just found out he's Leb (and-oh-that-hairy-chest) and well and I'm working my way to totally flirt around him in a very subtle way.

I just want to lick him all over.

Went to see Cris Pablo's new flick Quicktrip last night at Robinson Galleria.

Grabe, I feel like meat. Everytime I go to the loo, I'm being checked at by dirty old men. I just bow my head down and make sure I don't make any eye contact.

Where are the young good looking blokes of Manila?

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Anyways, the movie had so much going for it...well... until the end.

I get it. A movie needs some twists and turns etc to make it a tad more exciting. But...

Let's review the film from the start.

Bank scene. Different sya. Camera shifts on chinito-yuppie-ish boyfriend.

What a fag. (and I mean that on childish way of cursing the character) How annoying was he. He spoke too much, tried too much and just had too much outrage about the world. Having his cel snatched didn't help his cause. I almost felt for him. But I guess this was a blessing in disguise because we move our attention to Topher "Chris" Barreto. Phwoar! What a find. I love simple guys like these. His character assumed that he was pogi, angelic, totally mabait, quite naive (which separates him away from all the evil of this world), masculine, very focused on what he wants for himself and his family and to me, totally sexy. I fell in love with him the moment I saw him. (and I'm not even into moreno types) For him, I watched the movie.

I saw in Chris the typical young Filipino of today. Attached to the cel, continously texting their lives away. I felt his need to be part of the world, whatever medium it may be. He seeked comfort in simplicity, because it was all he had, like the messages (or lack of) he recieved in his phone. And like me, we were born multi-taskers. Focusing one side to the family and their needs, and on our most closeted moments, finding ways to witness our secret 'gay' lives.

I felt bad for him. Seeking the attention of an asshole whom he's clearly mistaken for as 'love'.

I was familiar with his escape. Sex. When stressed or upset, I too look for sex as a form of escape. No drinking, no drugs...I go straight to the source. I admire his courage to enter the perverted movie house. I would've done the same. Except the fear of running into DOMs would've overtaken my desires. Obviously in this movie, he lived in a better fantasy world, where youth prolifirated such dirty places. Could there be a hint of reality in this? (I would like to think so.) And like Chris, would I be so quick to respond to anyone's interest in me even if they're butt ugly. No way! Give me Topher anytime and maybe I would think about it.

This is what I liked most about Chris. Behind his angelic nature lies horns driven by sexual desires. And add to that, his homosexual desires. Yum.

Enter super horny buffed Ando. Who is a living proof that all men think about is sex. Poor naive Topher was on the same state mind. Blame chinito asshole. (or thank him?) Half the movie is spent trying to find their magical place for sex. Where to go, where to go? Motels, parks (with desperate baklitas roaming it's grounds), dodgy friends pads. It was a nice glimpse to the grity world of motels in the Philippines. (which I'm nowhere close to knowing) Who would've thought that in these trying times, some motels dare to deny pink money by pushing away homosexual clientele? Hmmm.

And finally to the sex. Good for them. About time they find a secluded place for raunch.

Except...

I wanted just a tad more. A tad more pubic hair, a hint of cock... anything! Lately, I've been led to believe that there is a current trend going around the Filipino gay Indie scene that promotes the act of going full monty, kahit na hindi sila yung main characters. (Ang Lihim ni Antonio had it; Maraming Salamat Po Hanggang Dito Na Lang had it; Ang Lalake Sa Parola showed cock at some point)

And yet none here. Nada, zilch. I was hoping for it during the masturbation scene. Pero ala. But that's ok. At least we got to see a bit of Topher's and Ando's butt. Plus the gay sex scene here is a little closer to reality. They seemed keen. Troopers at heart. Tongues did wag and at some point the word 'torrid' came into my head. Believeable. Naive at some point, "Mahal na kita!" Hot.

Until the ugly twist. Like really? Was it neccessary?

It didn't work for me. Not that I am always in favour of happy endings. (I love horror flicks that kill all their characters. Well most. hahaha) Blame it on me being a hopeless romantic. A true seeker of love in all it's facets. Romeo in my own way. But mostly because I really thought Chris totally deserved to be loved and be happy. (he's that cute) Niloko mo kami. Akala namin eto na para kay Chris. He was in. His goaly kick was going to be the scream of the crowd. Pasok na sya!

But dude...

Sinira mo yung ending. Yak! I went home wanting my P40 back. You can have the P100 when everything was fine and dandy. But the rest. That's 15-20 mins of my life I can never get back.

All in all: it wasn't really that bad, well the first half. In fact it bordered in "OK!" Pero sayang. I'll give it to you though C. Pablo, the budgeting of funds at the beginning of the film was creative. I felt Chris' sense of poverty. We could all relate. The poor family cliche will probably be far removed from Filipino films. Heck, it's all over television, so why not film. When done properly, it does tug on peoples hearts. Chris was a good son all over. Admirable traits. My Kuya would dare not ask me for a kiss in exchange for money, but heck, to all his own. Loveable sexy and cute main character: check. Winner ka na sana dun. Yun nga lang, plain cliche na yung storyline. For all we know, he could've turned into a macho dancer. Then I would've just walked out of the moviehouse. But there was a point it became, could this movie be about a guy looking for love at all the wrong places? Then I was intrigued. So I soldiered on...

The rest of the film moved at a steady rate. The ex-boyfriend remained annoying. His friends made me promise that I shall never acquire such shallow people in my life. Ever! Ando's beefy body made me curious. It made me want to meet my own damaged Ando. But where? The movie made me question if real Ando's exist in the dark corners of dirty movie houses in the Philippines? Enough to tempt me to come back every year? And for the real Ando. Will he be making more gay films? Pero baka nga may topak ang ibang mga Ando. Yung mas malala pa ang aabutin mo in real life kuno.

So I gave the film a 6. For Topher.

I concluded that I could've been doing better things in life. Like maybe catching up on sleep or food tripping. Or hanging out with my family. Or maybe watching a better film at the other cinema?

I guess for me, when I go on secret rendevous like this, in a country I try to visit only on occassions, you want it to be well worth it. One wants to come out satisfied feeling the whole experience was well worth it and I'd like to tell all my friends about it. Like in Lihim or in Pagdadalaga ni Maximo. They had some depth in them that touched my heart. Truly profound gay films that I am proud to tell people. I felt something after the 2 hours of watching those.

With Quicktrip, that's what I felt like. Like a Quicktrip lang to Robinsons Galleria, just to kill time. Kasi may kulang yung film. Like depth, like a better ending, like better sex scenes, like less corny lines. If had I stayed home, logged unto the internet a searched for good porn, probably that would've been more satisfying.

In fairness...thank you for discovering Topher Barreto. I look forward to more of his projects in the future. He has lots of potential and may make it big on Indie films. Here's hoping that he would be willing to once again offer his services on satisfying the needs of the gay community in the film industry. Good luck to you bro!

To Chris Pablo: Andyan ka na. Alam mo na ang kailangan mong gawin. Hindi naman kailangang madalian. Pagisipan lang. Konti pa. Malapit ka na. Yung pang Academy ang dating. Depth lang Kuya, depth lang. Marunong ka nang humanap ng pogi, so no worries there. Malay mo, masali sa Film Fests all over the world yung susunod at susunod pa duon di ba. Bigyan ng panahon at isip. Di pa huli ang lahat! Yun lang po. Pero salamat na rin kahit papaano. :)

Watch the trailer for yerselves: